One Boy

On St. Stephen’s morning the household of Scarrow lined up in the staircase hall, and Wardlow stood at the oak table with his sister and a tray of small deal boxes.

It was done every year at nine o’clock. Cecily had the list. She read out each name, and he put the box into the right hand and said what he could. He kept it short. They knew he meant it, and they wanted their breakfast.

“Mrs. Orme.”

“Thirty-one mouths and nine sacks of flour, and nobody has gone hungry. Thank you.”

“I’d thank you for a thaw, my lord,” said Mrs. Orme, and curtseyed, and went.

There was a box for Lady Halewood’s maid, who looked astonished, and for her coachman, and for Brome’s man. There was one for Shaw and one for Amos. Dick Heathcote, the shepherd’s grandson, had come up in his grandfather’s coat with the sleeves turned back. He shook his box at his ear before he was out of the hall.

“Ned Varley,” said Cecily.

Ned came up grinning, with his hair wetted flat for the occasion. His box was heavier than the rest. He weighed it in his palm and looked at Wardlow.

“Open it.”

There was a guinea on top. Under it lay a pocket-book bound in brown calf, ruled for accounts, with a pencil in a loop at the side. Ned turned it over twice.

“That is for the machines,” Wardlow said. “You have packed thirty of them and checked the maker’s bills for all forty. From New Year’s Day you will keep the reckoning as well. Each crate, what it cost, where it went and who signed for it. Mr. Jessop has enough to do. You will bring the book to me on the first Monday of every month.”

For once Ned had nothing to say. His ears went red.

“I’ll keep it right, my lord,” he got out at last. “I’ll keep it that right you could shew it to Parliament.”

“I may have to. That is why I am giving it to you.”

Ned went back down the line holding the book against his chest. Jessop came last, as he always did, and bowed over his box as if it had been a surprise. Then the hall emptied toward the kitchen passage. Cecily folded her list.

“You have just made that boy a clerk,” she said.

“He made himself one. I have only given him the paper.”

“You are in a very good humour for the day after Christmas.” Her hazel eyes searched his face. “You slept.”

“I did.”

He had slept seven hours, and he knew the reason. He did not mean to tell his sister what it was. A hand had been laid on his for the space of perhaps ten breaths. Then Jessop had come back along the hall, and Miss Ludlow had taken up her godmother’s book and said good night, and gone. Nothing else had been said, and that had been enough.

He went to the library.
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She was there before him. The fire had been built up fresh on the bed of the old log, and she sat on her own side of the inkstand in the grey gown, with her hands folded on the blotting-book. Her eyes looked as if she had not had his seven hours, or the half of them.

“Good morning, my lord. I have something to confess.”

“So early?”

“I have crossed the frontier. Cicero may pass what sentence he likes.” She nodded at his side of the desk. “It was done at two o’clock this morning. If you would sooner it had never been written, the fire is behind you, and I shall not say a word.”

A single sheet lay on his blotter, beside the brass plate. It was in her quick upright hand, without a correction on it. My Lords stood at the top.

He sat down and read it.

Then he read it again, aloud, because that was how he tried every sentence. He did not think to ask her leave.

“‘My Lords. On the twenty-third of December, 1796, I heard a knocking in the wall of my father’s house. I was eleven years old. I did not know what it was, and I waited an hour to be certain.

“‘It was a child. He was eight years old, and his name was Tom Pickering. He had been sent up the chimney of our hall to sweep it for the Christmas company, and he had stuck fast at the turn. When they broke the wall, he was dead.

“‘I have been certain ever since. I do not ask your lordships to feel what I felt that day. I ask you only not to wait an hour.’”

The room was very quiet. He could hear the ash spitting.

He read it aloud a second time. He went more slowly, and he listened to it as the House would. He came to the name and waited for the wall that always rose in front of it. The name came out without a pause. It was set down there so plainly, between a number and a full stop, that there was nothing for him to climb.

When he had finished he found that he could not speak. He sat with the sheet in both hands and looked at it. She did not fill the silence for him. She had learned that faster than most people in London ever had.

“That is the best page I have ever had under my name,” he said at last.

She let out a breath, and her shoulders came down an inch.

“The words are yours, my lord. You said nearly every one of them last night. I only put them in order.”

“You left out the mason.”

“The House does not need the mason. You do, and he is yours to keep.” She was looking at the inkstand. “I had no right to use any of it. It was told to me, and not to four hundred peers. I knew that when I took up the pen. But Mr. Brome said in my hearing on Tuesday that you must give them one boy, and I could not get to sleep for thinking that you had one.”

“I told Brome I did not know how it was done.”

“It is done by saying it in the fewest words you can, and then sitting down.”

He laid the page flat. His hand was not quite steady, and he let her see that.

“I did not believe that I could say his name in that House. I had not said it aloud to anybody in twenty-two years, until last night.”

“You have now said it twice in this room, and Cicero did not faint.”

It surprised a laugh out of him, short and rough. She smiled for the first time that morning. It did not reach all the way to her eyes. He wondered what it was that had kept her awake besides his speech.

“Then we go on,” he said. “If that is the first page, the eleven I wrote are no use. They belong to some other speech.”

“They belong to some other man. I should keep the facts and burn the rest.” She drew a clean sheet toward her. “What comes after Tom?”

“Ned.”

“Yes. One who died, and then one who lived. And then the number.”

By ten the room had filled about them. His uncle and aunt took their chairs. Brome came in with his book, saw the two heads bent over the desk, and sat down on the sofa without opening it. Halewood strolled in at eleven and turned the armchair to its usual angle.

Wardlow hardly noticed him. He had never worked like this in his life.

She asked, and he answered. He had the facts. He had spent nine years getting them, in sweeps’ yards and vestry rooms and the back kitchens of workhouses. She took them from him one at a time and weighed them, and found each a place.

“How young are they bound?”

“Five and six, commonly. I have met one who was four. The law says eight, and no magistrate has ever asked to see a register.”

“Then say it in that order. ‘The law says eight. I have met a boy of four.’ Do not explain it. They will do the sum.”

“The machines.”

“Forty, Ned told me. Given to forty parishes.”

“Yes.”

“And what have the parishes found?”

“That the same sweep comes on the same day and asks the same charge. He brings a bundle of canes where he used to bring a child.”

Her pen was already moving. “I shall not better that. I am writing it down as you said it.”

At noon Brome gave up pretending to read. He came and stood at the end of the desk, and she handed him the first page without being asked. He read it twice. Then he took out a large handkerchief and blew his nose.

“That is it, Wardlow,” he said. “That is the thing itself. Who—” He looked from one of them to the other, and thought better of the question. “I shall want a copy for the Commons. I will not read it. I only want to have it by me.”

“A family secretary now,” Halewood remarked from his chair. “Wardlow, you are becoming quite a patron of letters. Do let me hear it. I have so little to amuse me.”

“You shall hear it in the spring,” Wardlow said, “from the benches opposite, with everybody else.”

He turned back to the desk. Halewood’s mouth had tightened, and it gave Wardlow a small, unchristian satisfaction.

After the cold beef they came to the vote.

“Five,” she said. “You lost by five. Mr. Brome says they were not against you. Who were they?”

He counted them off on his fingers. “Corsley. Penmoor. Hatherleigh. Dunmere. Tarrant. Each of them told me in April that he would support me, and each of them walked out by the other door.”

She sat back and tapped the feather of her pen against her chin.

“Lord Corsley votes with whoever gave him his last dinner. You need not write a word for him. Mr. Brome must feed him the night before.” She said it as she might have named the price of tea. “Lord Penmoor has a grandson who turned six in October. He carries the child’s picture in his watch-case, and he shews it to people who have not asked. When you come to the age at which they are bound, say ‘six’, and stop, and look at his bench.”

Wardlow stared at her.

“Lord Hatherleigh was at Corunna. He cannot bear to be thought slow to act. ‘Not to wait an hour’ is his line already. Lord Dunmere will ask what it costs, so he must have the forty parishes and the same charge.” She looked up. “Why do you look at me so?”

“You know them better than I do. I have sat in the same House with them for seven years.”

“I have handed all five of them their tea, my lord. Men will say a good deal across a companion’s head.” Her colour had risen. “And Lord Tarrant? I do not know what turned him.”

“He believed that I had bought into the patent. He told me so afterward, quite kindly. He had read it in a newspaper.”

Her pen stopped in the air.

“Then you must tell him that it was false,” she said, after a moment. Her voice had gone flat and careful. “In the speech. In plain words.”

“I will not stand up in the House of Lords to answer a paragraph in the Lantern.”

“You would not be answering the Lantern. You would be answering Lord Tarrant, who is a fool and deserves an answer no less for that.” She bent over the page, and he could not see her face. “It need be only two sentences. It need name nobody.”

She wrote them, and pushed the sheet across. I own no share in any patent, and I never have. I have given forty of these machines away, and I will give forty more to any of your lordships’ parishes that will ask for one.

It was exact, and it was generous to Tarrant, and it shut that door for good. He read it over. It did not sound like a man defending himself. It sounded like a man making an offer.

“You are very fierce on my behalf, Miss Ludlow.”

“I dislike a lie, my lord. I dislike it more when it has been believed.” She was already ruling a line under the paragraph, hard enough to dent the paper.

The light went early. At five Jessop came to say that the drawing room fire was lit, and Cecily took the Marsdens and Brome away to it. The Colonel would not go. He had fallen asleep in his chair with the Sheffield newspaper over his waistcoat, and nobody had the heart to shout him awake. Halewood had gone an hour before, yawning, to see if the billiard room could be borne.

There were nine new pages on the desk. Wardlow squared them. He put the question he had been carrying since morning.

“Where does a vicar’s daughter learn to write like this?”

She did not answer at once. She wiped her pen with some care.

“Sermons,” she said.

“You told me that your father read his aloud to you.”

“He did. In his last three years his eyes were failing, and I wrote them out fair for him, in a large hand. When one copies a sentence one learns how it is made. And in the last winter I did rather more than copy. He would give me the text and the heads on a Friday, and preach what I had made of them on the Sunday.” She glanced at him, and away. “He told nobody. A parish does not like to think it has been preached at by a girl.”

“Then there are people in Hertfordshire who have been listening to you for years, and never knew it.”

“A few farmers, my lord. And a kitchen-maid.”

It was a good answer, and he believed it. He had the feeling too that it was the front room of a larger house, and that she had shut a door somewhere behind her as she spoke. He did not press her. She had kept his secret a night and a day. She was entitled to her own.

“One page more,” he said. “The ending. I had three sides for it.”

“You will want three lines. Read me what you have.”

He read. She winced twice, and held out her hand for the sheet, and dipped her pen. The nib spread and spat a blot across her knuckle.

“That one is finished,” she said. “I have worn it down to the feather.”

“So is mine.”

A fresh-cut quill lay in the tray of the inkstand, where Jessop left one every morning. It was on the common ground. They both reached for it.

His fingers closed on the barrel and hers closed over his. She had leaned in to reach, and so had he. He looked up, and her face was a hand’s width from his own.

Neither of them moved.

He could see a small smudge of ink beside her mouth, where she had rested her chin on her hand. He could see that her lashes were darker than her hair, and that she was not breathing. He was not sure that he was. Her eyes had gone wide and serious. He thought, quite clearly, that if he leaned forward by the length of that quill he would know what her mouth felt like. He thought too that he had never wanted to know anything so much.

The door was open, as it was every day, and his uncle was snoring six feet away. She was a guest under his roof with no one in the world to protect her but an old woman with a stick. He held still. It cost him more than any word ever had.

“Hester! Where have you put my spectacles?”

Miss Ludlow was back in her chair before the cane struck the threshold. The quill stayed in his hand.

Lady Halewood stood in the doorway in her shawls. Her black eyes went from her goddaughter to the Earl, and from the Earl to the sleeping Colonel, and back again.

“They are on the table by your bed, ma’am,” Miss Ludlow said. Her voice was very nearly steady. “In the red case.”

“They are not. I have had Pruett on her knees under that bed.” The old lady came two steps into the room. “It is a quarter past five. I have had no tea, and nobody to disagree with but Mrs. Marsden, who agrees with everything at the top of her voice. You have worked this girl since nine o’clock, Lord Wardlow. I should like her back before you have used her up.”

“I beg your pardon, ma’am. The fault is mine.”

“I am sure that it is. Come along, child. You may look for them yourself.”

Miss Ludlow gathered her blotting-book. She did not look at him. At the door she stopped, with her godmother’s hand already on her arm.

“The ending wants only this, my lord. Say what you want the House to do, and say the boy’s name once more, and stop.”

Then she was gone, and the cane went tapping away down the passage.

He sat for some time without moving. The Colonel snored. The quill was still in his fingers, and he put it down.

The first page lay where he had left it that morning, beside the brass plate. He drew the candle nearer and read it once more, to himself.

He was not reading it now for what it said of him. He was reading it for how it was made. The sentences were short and each one stood by itself. The feeling was held back until the last line, and then it was let go in a single turn. I ask you only not to wait an hour. A good ending was like a door shutting, and he had felt this one shut the moment he read it.

He had felt that before, and it had not been in a sermon. Somewhere, on some other page, a sentence had turned on him in just that way at the very end, and he had sat and admired the workmanship against his will.

He had read this voice before. He stayed where he was in the firelight with her page under his hand, and tried to remember where.
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